A Poem for my mother. I love you.

Mother's Day. A Day when you tell your mother how special she is to you. I know the importance of this day more than ever this year because I lost her last year. I dedicate this poem to my mom. I know she knows this wherever she is. I miss you mom. Love you a lot. 

I am here in my room, looking at your picture,
Wondering why you couldn't be a part of my future.
Lots of tears stream down my face,
while my heartbeat starts to race.
Asking God why he took you from my life,
it was more painful than stabbing my heart with a knife.
I still needed you here,
You were the one to make everything clear.
You are a part of me and I am a part of you,
when you died a part of me died too.
I never knew how hard it was, to loose someone you love,
until the day you went to heaven above.

Even though I can't see,
I know you are up there watching over me.
I miss you more and more everyday
and all I can do is pray.
In my heart you shall remain forever,

I love you the most, You are my mother.

Happy Mother's Day Ma  :|

Loneliness in a crowd

Its an empty feeling that comes from within,
A deep desire to share my feelings but no one will listen,
I reach out for open arms, but nobody is there,
My tears fall to the ground, but nobody cares.

I pick up the phone, but have no one to call,
I feel overwhelmed; my mind is a crawl,
I lay in my bed in the light of the moon,
Just so I don't see those who aren't there for me through.

The flames spark inside me and heat up my fear,
My thoughts are suicidal, my days seem near,
Emotional fires burn up in my head,
Fires of love and pain and regret.

Consumed in my own darkness, I will slowly fade away
My once blue and sunny sky will someday turn to clouds of gray.

Distance can't keep us apart

I won't let the distance between us,
keep our love apart,
Listen close and you'll hear,
The heavy beating of my heart.

No distance will keep,
My heart from loving you,
There are a large distance to leap,
But the steps are hardly few.

We will be together..
some day soon.
To love one another everyday,
And then my heart will sing a tune.

I've finally found my soul mate,
As true as one can be,
And now your all I'm thinking of,
to forever stay with me

I wana run away

There are millions of people in the world, 

yet I feel like I'm alone
And even though I try to do it right,

everyone seems to see me wrong.
 

So I rush out in rage,

though what I say is never heard.
Coz I've learned to turn my heart,

& swallow all these hateful words.

But I'm getting tired now

& I can only take so much
Coz with everything that happens

my soul is slowly being touched

I make others laugh 

just to escape all my pain
But every time I'm down 

no one's there to do the same

So I sit back and relax, 

while I nurse all my wounds
As I lay terribly depressed 

in a dark cramped-up room

Somehow this little balled up aggression
Is slowly changing into an even bigger depression
Something I can't take and can't shake

I've now acquired too many emotions to ever explain
It feels like there's demons as well as angels 

are fighting for control of my pain

For some strange reason 

my heart is being pulled in opposite directions
One has the side of good 

and the other knows no affection

And I can't explain the way I feel, 

I just know I feel this way
From the second that I wake, 

till the time I end my day

Although I enjoy life 

and try my best to learn it's lessons
I just wish someone could teach me 

to escape this Great Depression.

Kuch kaho to sahi

दिल में है जो बात वो कहो तो सही,
आपकी जिंदगी हमसे बाटों तो सही,
कुछ केह दिया हमने शरारत में,
अगर ठेस लगी तो कहो तो सही.

Waqt

देर से आना फितरत है तुम्हारी,
इंतज़ार करना आदत है हमारी,
कभी तो वक़्त पे कुछ करो,
वरना तो LATE होना बीमारी है तुम्हारी |

For all my friends who are never on time.. :P (you know who you are)

एहसास

दूर रहकर भी करीब हो आप,
हमारी साँसों में बसे हो आप,
हम कहें तो भी कितना कहें,
हमारे हर शब्द में बसे एहसास हो आप |